But I also don't feel I can be someone who looks away if H is getting involved with OW again. I think this was a one time deal for me. I don't think I will really know for sure how I feel until I'm directly confronted with it. But last night, when I was snooping around I very much felt like 'ok, if I find something, I'm getting my ducks in a row to file D'. To me it just feels like it would be more deceit than I, personally, could ever overcome.
I've been avoiding things like looking at our joint CC out of fear. Which is actually not good, it's MY money too and if he is funding an affair - again - I don't think it would be wise to put my head in the sand. I think this is a bottom line for me.
M: 42 H: 43 M: 8 years S7 and D4 H has D19 and S25 from previous M Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA 1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail 2nd separation: 5/1/14
