I have to agree with vossy, you seem to be pushing. Hard.

Is this the new you or the old you? What would the 180 be?

He stays, he goes, you're going to be fine either way.

Enjoy where you are.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss