Thanks all. It all makes sense. And rock, yeah, I've been pretty hard on myself my whole life.
On Sunday my buddy told me 'you've lost weight, you look good'. I responded 'I still have another 10-20 pounds to go', then Immediately said 'man, thanks for the compliment. I'm sorry, i guess I'm bad at accepting praise'. So first I beat myself up, then I beat myself up for beating myself up.
This is probably my big failing in the M. I drive hard. I can tell you I've driven myself far, far harder than people that think they drive hard, and have done some exceptional things. But all of that drivin came from a feeling of insignificance, that if I wasn't a world champion hall of famer that it was just a joke. Problem is that I applied those standards to my W. which means I didn't appreciate what she brought, and instead of healing my feelings of insignificance I shared them with her.
More later, gotta run to work and drive hard
Last edited by Zues126; 08/12/1412:57 PM.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
