Dealing with WAW Part 3

[pilot]

Thanks oad. I guess for me it comes down to what is real. I loved my wife. We had problems I did not know about, and she snapped. I get it. But what is real and what is not? Was the wife I knew for 7 years real, or is this the real her now? Is the person I see a person in a fog, or a person who has undergone a self discovery and this is what you get? Part of this whole DB and detachment has led me to understand what I was missing in my M. I am a passive person by nature and was content to just let things be. But now I see where I could have had so much more. The natural choice would be to try and work things out with my W and mother of my kids. But that is not a choice I get to make unilaterally. Right now I kind of feel like I am playing roulette. I keep putting all my chips on a number hoping it will come up. Sure, it may very well in time. But at what personal cost? What opportunity cost?

Maybe I am just feeling down right now, or this week. I do not know. I just know when i look at her right now, I would not want to marry her, probably would not even ask her out on a date. The flip side, there are others out there who I know I would...