KML: We finally agreed on everything tonight. I thought it would really tear me up more than I could imagine. Instead, we told our kids and now, we wait. Everything will move a little slower. He plans on keeping the house. I can't move out for a few months until I get my settlement and find a house that the kids like.
Reading the comments here along with seeing that my youngest handled it better than I thought really took some of the grief out of it all.
It is amazing how much having other people tell me that I did all that I could do can really make me feel a little better. I did. I was faithful. I worked on the marriage. I gave chances. I didn't cheat. I just took on so much guilt. That has been bothering me for so long.
I am taking my oldest to see her therapist tomorrow afternoon. She suggested a therapist for me, but the therapist isn't available until late October. I don't think she realized how long it would take. So I am going to talk to her again tomorrow to see if I can get in faster.
