WAW not admitting to affair #3

[shodan]

I hear ya. I have told her that I don't want to live in an open marriage. She knows that. There is no need to say it again...it will just lead to more fighting but no resolution. And might it push her away...yes. Not necessarily into the arms of the OM. I actually think my wife's decision is going to be "do I want to be married at all?" But that is a lot of speculation on my part. She feels shackled by our life b/c she loves her family and her kids. She does not want to break up the M and the family, I know that. But in her mind she was SO unhappy with her life (again, not just her M, but in other ways) that she needs to escape.

So what I do continue to do...I 180 and do things that the old me never did. I do my best to not act in a controlling way. I am not showing anger. and I need to focus on having fun, which has been hard frankly. But i am coming out of my own fog little by little. I will survive this as a far better person than I began.

Lots of love for everyone