WAW not admitting to affair #3

[shodan]

Starsky

Thanks for your input. I clearly am conflicted here, but I believe God would say to forgive my W and be pleasant, be nice and be civil until I cannot do it anymore. If I reach that point, then I need to move on. I am not there yet. Yes, I hurt inside and yes I yearn for my family to be back together. This is her journey and I am going to let her take it. I will run along side the journey until I reach my limit.

Given she has not admitted to the A, I just need to detach and GAL. I am going to see a friend tonight and have a guitar lesson on Thursday. My wife is traveling for work on Wed, so we will only see each other tomorrow night. I also have a meeting with my DB coach on Wednesday and my therapist on Thursday morning.

My wife needs space. Her exact words to my MIL were "I want a different life than the one that I am leading." Very MLC in nature. She is struggling with being a mom, a wife, and an individual. But ironically, when she got back from her girl's weekend in Colorado, she was exhausted and basically said she had fun but it really was not what she wants to do. Drinking and partying all night, not sleeping, etc. is not what she enjoys. What does this mean for us? I have absolutely no idea. But do I think my W went a little crazy and maybe is coming back to reality a bit? Maybe. Time will tell.