Wife dropped the bomb; doing in house separation

[HopeTex]

Random thoughts/Journaling:

I am slowly gaining more peace and detachment. There are still waves of pain and fear and codependency, but they are shorter and less-consuming.

I had a good conversation with my counselor today, and discussed my thoughts about needing a break. He was totally open and supportive of whatever I need to do. It led to a good general conversation about where I am and where I want to go. I think I will stick with this counselor for now, and just take a more active role in guiding my own life and guiding my counseling: not that I won't let the counselor do his job, but I need to decide what I want to improve in myself, not just show up for counseling to wallow in emotion or sit back and let him drive the train.

Not going to bring up a "sleeping arrangements discussion" with the W right now. I think i wanted to do that just as a way to poke at her and get some type of read on the R, her plans, etc. It would be thinly-disguised pursuing. I am fine for now with trading weeks in the master bedroom and will STFU.

I really have no clue where her mind is right now, and altho I don't like it I am much better at accepting that than I used to be.

So for right now I am just trying to be at peace with where the R is, live day-by-day, work on my own personal happiness, etc.

This forum is helping me stay sane, thanks guys.

She shows some positive signs, but nothing huge:
Smiling at me,
initiating non-R conversations about kids, etc
asking how my day was
calling me "babe" once in a while (accidental slip-up? who knows?!)
Not filing for D!

I notice them, but don't obsess on them.

She hasn't shown any particularly negative signs recently, but she is not a very expressive person anyway. I guess the negative signs are just that she is detached and not pursuing me and not wanting to reconcile, but that is very much to be expected right now.