You have my condolences. Welcome to the Sh*ttiest Club ever. Which is only a good one to join because so many cool people are in it!!!
Right now--- grab that STFU bottle, take a BIG OLD SWIG.
Now take another one.
Feel better?
Make sure you do your venting on here and NOT TO YOUR W!!!
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Right now your head is reeling, your heart is breaking, and you probably feel sick. At least that's usually how it goes.
You are not alone, not by a long shot.
My hand is out--so grab onto it---and listen.... -------------------
This is NOT the end for you. It is an explanation for some things that haven't made sense until now.
KNOWLEDGE IS POWER, my friend!
Do not fear it.
In fact. FEAR NOTHING. Call up your inner Batman and ask yourself: "What would The Bat do?"
He'd be cool. He'd keep it together. (Except in the most remote recesses of Wayne Manor, where even Bruce might have a manly cry in private. Hey, he's human, right?)
Personally, if/until it is ever fully thought out, knowing you're doing it for all the right reasons, with support from the vets here, DO NOT TIP YOUR HAND.
There is plenty of time for that, so don't go off half-cocked out of pain and shock.
Find a way to distance yourself, be busy, drop off the radar for awhile while you mull this over and calculate how best to handle it.
YOU DO NOT NEED TO 'DO' ANYTHING RIGHT NOW.
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Your challenge has just gotten a whole lot bigger.
Are you up for it?
I think you might be. You just need to believe it. --------------------------------
Rayzzz... I'm so sorry.
This is the time to use those thought-stopping, redirecting, meditative techniques and try as hard as you can to hold yourself together.
After all, this has been the truth, you're just dealing with the reality of it up close and personal.
It's not going to kill you, although it might feel like it.
You will be stronger and you can handle this.
Just don't say anything to her or anyone else. It's "business as usual" for the time being EXCEPT ON THIS BOARD.
OK--GO!
Your Pal,
---GGG
Me 54 Him 63 M 23 T 29 0 Kids Funny Farm of Rescues 12/12 OW-- 5/13 ILYBINILWY: A denied 9/13 Proof OW: ENDED 2/14 Got D papers on my BD I kicked him out for my sanity 9/14 He wants to "talk"?
