I dont want to welcome a new woman into my life but it getting continuously harder to accept what she has done to me and has continued to do . I accept a portion of the responsibility for the marriage problems but in no way will I accept any for the affair . She could have done things so much differently .
Maybe Im not cut out for taking this any furhter . Its been 8 months of pure torture and now I m starting to see there s life after wife . I havent had relations with another woman although there has been ample opportunity to do so . I find detachment has defintely helped me but put me in positions to make me notice another life away from her .
What is the point of staying with her ? Really , do we ever trust them again ? really ? I do love her thats no question but just because you love someone it doesnt me you have to be with them . I hope she comes around soon Or I believe my detachment is going to lead me to another life .
Me 45 W 45 Son 16 Son 14 Married 23 together 27 W threatened sep several times W still at home A discovered Mar 17 2014 A ended DEC 2 ( skeptical )
