U Turn i think going back to teaching is of the utmost important thing for you right now . That will definitely keep you distracted and detached . Theres alot going on in your life and teaching will keep you from dwelling on the negative .

My detachment is working wonders with me . Im feeling better than i have for months . We talk very little and frankly if she was to leave tomorrow i would say have a nice life . Ive come to realize theres alot more life out there than to spend time with a woman who treated me so , so badly . I do forgive her but only for me . She doesnt deserve my forgiveness . Maybe Im bitter towards her now but I didnt do this . She could have done alot of things different rather than be a cheating sl$!t .

I do still love her immensly but getting harder every day to imagine staying together for ever . I think the damage is done . And I agree with Peter , if we do stay together it will be a completely new marriage . But honestly theres many , many beautiful women out there to start over with . And some of them really understand you because they ve been through it too .

Me 45 W 45
Son 16 Son 14
Married 23 together 27
W threatened sep several times
W still at home
A discovered Mar 17 2014
A ended DEC 2 ( skeptical )