THIS is a BIG reason why you're still in this mess. Didn't the two of you go to C after your A's were discovered? The NUMBER ONE thing that she needed from you was FULL transparency. That would have helped to heal things faster and re-established trust. You should have allowed her full access to all of your emails and cell phone when ever and where ever she asked for it.
If you didn't do this, you didn't understand what she needed to heal.
We went to one session of C after the 3rd time she caught me. It was mildly productive. I remember being very defensive, very self-righteous, and not truly making an effort to understand her feelings. (Kind of like now, unfortunately)
M: 15 years BD: 6/25/14 EA/PA: starts 5/14/14 11/30/14 - A ends 5/15/15 - D is finalized. 11/28/15 - Start of new LTR with a wonderful woman (and still going strong)!
