My gosh, I was emotional just reading all the lovely replies to you Matt! (am taking note for me too)
But they, the posters are right. I remember one day when my h. was dismissive & arrogant (not significantly long after the bomb). I had begun reading the suggested threads & links here. Some of the information here communicated that he wouldn't be in this mlc predicament had so many family issues not escaped 'their Pandora's box' & finally caught up with him in midlife. And then ... I thought if I feel occasionally tired & I am getting older (!) - do I really want to haul 'that' baggage into my old age? (esp. when I have to manage my own as well)
We don't know how we would feel in a few years from now or where life would take us. Putting this amount of energy into 'crazy' will only deprive us of resources we will need for ourselves one day. It's about depletion - & interestingly enough the mlcer would be no more stable it. It's their 'virus' - it has to run its course. You are a good man and now you must be good to you. Eveything else will eventually fall into place. p.
pbetra ---- M: 15 yrs (in 2014) BD: 6/03/2014 Infidelity ('known' from July 2014) Denied PA Feb 2015 2 leave Mar 2015 (left early Summer). Some contact. Back briefly 2017 (after family death) Separated 2017