Thanks for your and your H's response, it's appreciated! The day after B-day, my W was at work and for no apparent reason, fainted. Passed out cold on the floor. I really think this was because, like your H, she knew she wanted to not be married to me, but at the same time still wanted me and knew I really did love her and care about her. She has told me a few times in the past that she is just so unhappy, so "dead" inside and she see's leaving me and starting over as the biggest change she could make in her life. She tells her kids that the reason she had to leave is because it was just so "unhappy" at home. She really thinks that her kids feel the same way. She is confused when my D19 doesn't agree. When she got so upset over the fact that I wanted to keep something she wanted, she said that she had to leave not because of anything I said or did but because she "had" to sleep on the couch, she couldn't relax, she couldn't sleep through the night. It's never because I am an awful H or treated her poorly. It's always about how she feels inside. How she feels about HERSELF.
Right now she is excited about her new home. She spends so much time and effort on getting it the way she wants it. My D19 said she thinks that as soon as the newness of having her own place wears off and it's just back to normal day to day living, my W is going to just go back to being unhappy just like always. It's like she has convinced herself that I have to be the problem. She also says she isn't looking for a new R or to be married again, she just needs to find her joy on her own and I would just get in her way.
Just got a text from W about picking up my D14. She said we could meet unless I want to come over and get her from her home. (??) Why would she think I would want to go there? It's 20 miles farther. I don't get her. Oh, well. I better get ready. Thanks again Raine and thank your H as well!
