barely holding on - 2

[u-turn]

Totally agree Peter - I don't think it is time to do all this with her yet. I will remain detached or regain detachment first to see what happens. I do not want to push too hard too fast as this has usually been my problem.

The transparency thing is going to be a sticking point as this is completely against the freedom she is trying to get along with the rest of the MLC symptoms. She will see it as controlling at this point.

I know even if the PA is over the EA is there and will be hard to end. I don't really know if she wants to end it or realizes it is a problem.

I know I have it in me to forgive and move forward. In my soul searching, I have discovered much about myself and my flaws. I know what I can do better, I know what I will not give up, and I also know that I cannot change the past. I hope she has the ability to forgive herself, she does bring up my past faults a lot these, I believe to try and justify her actions. I have read that this will happen.

We are not perfect and I am at peace with that.

Thanks PeterV