Hi I'm new, I hope I won't be a burden... prt 4

[MrBond]

"Ok i tried encouraging her to go out and see her friends but she thinks im up to something like setting up a camera."

Of course she doesn't trust you because you attacked her guy friend.

"I had a great opportunity to go do photography for a birthday party but she had a issue with it apparantly how i wanted to go to check out other girls. How i wouldve had to check them out via the camera, how i would have had to make sure they look hot in every picture so i would have to judge them. So instead i cancelled it to keep her happy."

You shouldn't have cancelled. Instead, what could you have done to help her with that? In the past, did you check out the girls? Be honest. There must have been something you did that made her feel this way.

"And yeah mr bond i do want to change my male dominated oppinions i want to allow her to be herself."

You never explained any actual ACTION that you would do to make this change.

"My plan of action is to just focus on moving myself forward, staying strong, not talking about us to her, and just enjoying the moments i have with her. Make her feel loved and understood."

Those aren't actual actions. You still seem to refuse to go to C. You really need some outside coaching to help you. Doing it on your own isn't helping and you're making things worse.