Possible MLC WAH, and need guidance

[Atsbaby]

Your right AJ, this is all new to me. I don't know what H is doing because it's his world at this moment.

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which I know is a lie, because I've read about it all over these boards

(I gotta figure out how to quote )
I meant that I'm lying to myself that it cannot happen to me, because it does happen. I'm trying to prepare for the worst and pray for the best.

I do believe he really does want me in his life.

I KNOW I want him in mine, not need but want.
I KNOW he doesn't want to live here and take on responsibility at this time.
I KNOW he is not the man I married at this time.
I KNOW I have to detach for my sake and my kids.
I KNOW my kids need me for their support and emotional needs at this time.
I KNOW I can only control myself.

I really don't know much regarding his thoughts and feelings, just by 50% of his actions. So I need to come up with better and stronger ways for me to detach from him. It's hard when he doesn't have a place to take the kids and he is at our house EVERY night.

I'm thankful school is starting this week and the kids will be on a more set schedule, which is what we all need, including H. Old H is OCD and consistent. That should have been a big signal for me that he was entering into this MLC chaos. Hindsight!!