IDK... maybe it's the sort of thing that could have happened to anyone. But, point is, I doubt it.
On the other hand, maybe everyone feels like this after they have a crash? The other thing that worries me is that although I feel horrified and embarrassed by what happened, I also feel as if I don't care. I doubt that this even will make sense to anyone else.
Yeah, it does happen.
For me, it happened just after the xw moved out the second time. It was the first snowfall of that year and I was just not paying close enough attention. The car two-cars in front suddenly decided to make a left turn. It was a two lane road and he was around a blind curve. The car in front of me slammed on the breaks and when they did I parked my car under theirs.
It was deemed a no-fault accident and the cop that gave me a ride home was smoking hot. And she had a gun and handcuffs
Nobody was hurt.
I was incredibly thankful, but I felt pretty much nothing either. I had a perfect record for 30+ years at that point.
I totally get it and how it feels.
The only real difference with this happening now and had it happened three + years ago is that you're stronger and better able to deal with it. And your perspective has changed a bit.
It's just things that happen along the way, right? Now that it happened, you deal with it as best you can and that's going to be good enough. You'll get back on the trail and continue on.
But don't discount the stress. Having a way to deal with the stress is important. An ex that is angry and hurtful can contribute to a lot of stress whether you admit it or not. I know how that feels too.
But it is just a point in time and one that you may laugh about later
Glad you're ok.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
