Wife dropped the bomb; doing in house separation

[HopeTex]

Feeling pretty crappy tonite. We are hosting my father in laws 70th bday at our house tonite. I had a really good day with the kids, took them to a friends pool party, had a great time. Came back for the big party and did well for a while. Then just felt like an outsider, just didn't have it in me to hang out and laugh and drink with everyone. Said I was tired and said good night and headed to bed. Now just sitting up, listening to everyone having fun and carrying on downstairs. Feeling hopeless, rejected, lonely. Don't feel like I belong here. Wife doesn't want me. Feeling like I want to call it quits and move on to something new that isn't so painful. I felt so good and strong and detached earlier today. Not so much right now. Ouch.