barely holding on - 2

[u-turn]

Well. All didn't go as originally planned. W saw on my face that I was unsure about going. Then it happened. She asked whats wrong. I should have kept quiet but I said "I'm unsure about going because of the mixed signals fro this week to today". Didn't go well after that. No concert. More talk.

I was a little ramped up because of a conv. Sandi and I were having on a different thread(sandi I hope you follow me over here. I really appreciate your words. And they helped me tonight).

Now I'm sure this is a backwards step. But I feel we weren't at a good starting point anyway.

I will check on the fallout in the morning I guess.