Not exactly sure what you're "shocked" about. She checked up on you because you kept insisting that you had changed, yet she wanted to be sure because of your prior A history. Lo and behold, she found out that you were sharing intimate secrets with another woman. This is just a consequence of your inability to understand how your W feels.
She never trusted you again since your A's. You don't seem to get that. Yet you are shocked and feel violated that she would look at your phone when you went out of your way to contact the OM's W and expose your W.
You still refuse to see how you are causing all of this.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
