Stimulus-Response: The Experiment Continues

[GoatGal]

Thanks, artsy.

You're right.
And I DON'T talk about it, as a rule.

However, they see me, so thin, so clearly putting a happy face on things.

They see what H is blind to: A really great woman who is being worn down to a nub over this.

I get that they care about me, think GUBU is an asshat for what he's doing.
They don't understand what's happening and think it's an indicator of the man he "really" is... But they couldn't be more wrong.

I explained this to my best friend.
Although initially she was in the "he filed, best to get it over with" camp, now she understands.

Why should I make it easy for him?
Why should I uproot myself and lose my home and "family" because HE wants me gone?


Sorry, but there is no clause that says I need to cooperate with crazy.
None at all.

When the time comes, he will have to find the cojones to push a D through.
Or not.

Meanwhile, I am doing my utmost to hope for the best while preparing for the worst.
This is a far cry from clinging to his bootstraps, begging him not to leave, accepting any treatment just so he might "love" me!

I would hope my friends know me better than this...but in their well-meant lectures there is a finger-wagging of sorts...

You know what I mean, the "Why don't you just move on?" wag.
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I believe he is in crisis.
And to be with me he will have to own his chit and be better.
WE would have to be better.

I am NOT giving him a free pass.
I simply keeping the door open should he decide to walk through it a better man and a better husband.

To me, the distinction is very important.

----GGG