Possible MLC WAH, and need guidance

[Atsbaby]

Thank you Matt! It is nice to hear the male perspective, and last night was the first time it was rough. It did scare me and I felt used this time. He was a bundle of nerves the evening before. After I stopped him, it did change, but not to what we had before.

"Be honest with yourself when you answer this....how did you feel after? Did you feel loved and cared about? Appreciated and wanted? Did you do it only in hopes that by meeting his physical needs that he would start to reconnect? "

I felt horrible and used, no love this time. I think I did do it in hopes of reconnecting, but I also did it for me because I wanted to. The last time there was more love and care, so I guess my expectations were there...I know, no expectations.

Today he is being nice. His plans changed a bit and d9 wanted to go to a bday party instead of the movies with him. He just left and asked if I needed anything while he was out...again this is a change for him. I thanked him and said no.

Currently he is texting me about clothing at a sports store. Searching for happiness in clothes...sometimes I wonder if he isn't part woman! This is something old H would do, ask for my opinion with clothing ideas. Today must be a clear day.

No expectations. I really need to search my soul about the physical boundary. Maybe God could chime in! Is He on these boards...lol.