This is the text conversation from Friday. Some insight to H current state:
Friday 8:00am
H: I have a question for you to answer later.
M: Ok:-).
H: You know all we have been through. Things happened that can't be undone, Things were said that can't be unsaid. Leaving little room for any reconciliation. We both miss what we once had. We also can't have what we had. Right?
M: Right. Not the way it was. I agree, we both miss what we had, I miss being with you. There are definitely ways to create a new and better relationship. We would just need to both want to do it.
H: Same. What expectations do you have right now? You can wait and think about that
M: I don't know that I have expectations at the moment. I'm concentrating on my life, and the kids. I don't know where you're at and what you want, and it seems you need time and space to figure that out. There were things I wish I never said and never did. I'm so sorry for not being the wife you needed me to be back then. Whether you will forgive me or not, I have to choose to be happy, with or without you. I want to be in a relationship, and I don't want to live the rest of my life alone. While I don't have expectations, I do know exactly what I want. I want you.
H: Thank you for that
M: You're welcome. What about you?
H: I am torn. Probably same as you
M: Nothing needs to be decided immediately. We both have things to figure out. I know there are things that you need to work through on your own. But I will be here for you and not judge you if you ever need to talk. Like I said earlier tho, I'm enjoying being with you very much.
H: Right. I have things to sort out and work through. I really really enjoyed our sexy time. I also know that is just a piece of a relationship. That was the purpose of my question. What if we don't/can't have a relationship?
M: I'm proud of you for recognizing that you have things to sort out and work through. I enjoyed our sexy time, too. I don't think right now we are ready to work on a relationship. Maybe we just take things really slow?
H: That's what I wanted to hear.
M44, H44, both M before M4 yrs, T6 BD 7/13 ILYB something isn't right with me H att suicide 2/14 S 4/14 OW disc 5/14 D final 4/15
