MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART III

[ItHurts]

Thanks so much nit and Sandi.
Well the lady friend and I breaking up isn't known by my WAW. I didn't tell her that so she had no idea. I didn't really break it off with my lady friend because of WAW...it was more a mutual decision between my lady friend and I. The timing of it was just a coincidence after Mr. Bond had mentioned I need to decide which girl to pursue. It wasn't because of WAW per se. Besides, as far as WAW is ocncerned, she thinks I am still seeing my lady friend. I left it with her that I would be continuing to pursue a relationship with LF and continuing to live my life with my new and improved self. WAW said that lady friend is a very lucky girl.

So WAW can't be thinking I am home and alone right now, instead she knows I go out every weekend, that I am seeing a great new girl, that I have many fun times with my old friends now, and that I have a life that doesn't include her. WAW knows I don't like to be alone and she knows I am looking for a new companion. She herself has told me (and others)that I won't be alone for long and that I will have a girlfriend quickly. So I don't think WAW is sitting at her parents thinking that I am sitting home alone pining over her. I think she is thinking that I consider the two days with her a big mistake and that I regret it...that's the impression I wanted to leave her with. That I made a mistake being with her and that I wanted to NC with her again because of her flip-flopping.

So it was kind of like damage control for me...I reversed my attitude during that last night the WAW was here to one of "I am washing my hands of this and I am done trying to talk to you. I am going on with my life and continuing to nurture my new realationship with my lady friend. Please do not contact me from now on, tell your friends not to contact me when you have an issue as well." That's how I left things with WAW. She left here with me in control. It was the only thing I thought I could do to get back into the driver's seat of this whole thing...act like my WAW and my two days/nights together were a big mistake and that I wanted her to leave. In fact I was wondering afterwards if maybe I muddied the WAW's path to home by saying that and being so stern about it but as I said it was all I could think to do to regain control over the situation. So as far as WAW knows, I am seeing the new girl still, I am happy with her, we are going to the concert Sunday, and that my social life goes on. This is why WAW said she doesn't want to lose me to another woman because even through the reconciliation talk, I always was sure to say that it would be complicated because I am not sure I want to stop seeing my lady friend. So I never really gave WAW the confidence that I would just drop my lady friend for her.

I should add it looks like lady friend will still be going to the concert with me and WAW had mentioned during those two days here getting tickets for her and her sister to go. WAW asked if it's okay if she says hi if she sees me at the show, I said yes but that you probably won't see me there, there will be thousands of people there. So if I am with lady friend when WAW sees me, that will help my cause because it was always WAW and I at these concerts.