You mention alot about your W complaining about you. What did she actually complain about? It sounds like she wanted you to stand up and be a leader but you would bottle things up and run away. What were her SPECIFIC complaints. I'm not talking about the nonsense rants, but the actual viable complaints.
Did you ever read the DB/DR books?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.