barely holding on - 2

[u-turn]

MrBond
I see that now and really get the not pushing the issue with the OM. and truly don't with her anymore.

I like this place because I can let what's been in my head out and not feel like I have to talk to her about it (the way we have in the past). I can release it here and then it's gone. Prior to finding DB, I would keep this all bottled up until I just had to talk to her about all of my feelings (and that never - ever worked).

She called it my circular pattern - I would be ok, not emotional, not dwelling on things, for 1 or 2 weeks. Then I would have the NEED to talk and pursue and explain and ask questions. She said I kept going back to square-one. It was driving her crazy. She said with this pattern she could see that I could never heal from this and I should just run.

I feel in a much better place now - and actually have direction.