MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART III

[ItHurts]

Thanks for the advice guys, yeah I realize asking WAW is a bad move...it's just for nearly 20 years we've always gone and seen this band together...even met the band in person.

Leave her utterly and completely alone. You haven't even begun to give her the time and space she needs. I never really gave my ex time and space until about 6 to 9 months ago. I THOUGHT I did, but now that I've got some more time and wisdom under my belt I can see I didn't really. I convinced myself I was giving her space, but yet I was pinging her on a regular basis, finding reasons to contact her, finding ways to insert myself into her life, etc. etc.

Okay well I do want to once again state that during this ordeal, I did not ever contact her. So I did not do these things you mention above, never once e-mailed her, never once called her. This last time was the first time and it was only because of the threat of her committing suicide. However before that I never once initiated contact with her...it was always her each and every time. She even remarked on how that annoyed her, how she didn't seem to matter to me, that I never called or e-mailed, that it always had to be her that did or it was like she didn't exist to me. So I was very strict with NC throughout this ordeal, didn't pursue at all. This last encounter with her was where I screwed up by taking the bait hook, line, and sinker based on her words.

Yeah there's other girls I could ask to the concert. NC doesn't work if I am going to a concert with her, I realize this. A very stupid question for me to ask clearly. NC is what I will return to.
For now, in NC I stay and if she moves to Florida at the end of September then I have decided that is when I will officially give up completely on her. At some point I have to give up because I won't last years and years alone waiting for her. I don't want to be alone, I'm not getting any younger, and I don't have years to wait for her if she's going to be moving so far away. So in my head and in my heart once she moves, that is when I am letting her go completely forever. I will then officially give up.

If I ever hear from her again or if anything else happens I will update you guys here. Thanks for taking the time to write your posts, I appreciate your time and insight.