WAW not admitting to affair #3

[shodan]

GALing and detaching has been very hard. No matter how much I try, I think about my W. At the work party last night, which my W did not attend, everyone was asking about her, commenting about my kids (who were not there but the people have met them many times) and how great my family is. All I wanted to do was cry. I kept thinking about her. It s*cks.

any advice out there? I know I need to move forward, but I am struggling. I know I need to detach, but I think about her and all of the fun we have all of the time. I look at her and want to hug her. Pathetic.... since she had or is having an A.

Where I struggle is by detaching, I feel like I am giving up on us.