2.5 Months After D-day...and I wait

[DBinSF]

Guys, I'm going batty. I don't have the patience to do this. I'm miserable, depressed, not myself, without any energy or power to do anything. I'm staying in decent shape, but my work and school life is falling to the wayside. And I'm frankly no fun to be around. All I think about is how there's a disruption in the universe, and that I want to fix it.

I know this is selfish talk, and I know I created this situation, but I can't help what I feel and I hope this is a safe place to vent. My therapist insists that I should completely abandon all hope of getting back together with my Ex because she is too sane to go back. She could never tell her family and friends that she's giving me another chance after all I've put her through.

The problem is, I don't know what giving up even looks like. I'm not able to live without her as it is. But giving up forever is line giving up a part of me.

Ugh.