So today was really little to no contact. Looking back last week we were doing well till that free mediation consultation, seems from that point on she withdrew. I have not pursued ... tonight is my night with S and we always call at 8, around 7 she asked if he could call now, she was going to the store and just finished her jog ... pretty sure its a night out with OM and I was a little upset but just had S call and decided not to focus/obsess on it ... Huge 180 for me, she mentioned she was having a bad day and I only told her I took care of S camp (180 me taking care of something like this) and hoped her day got better and left it at that.
Some things bugging me, TM a few days ago over the $$ she stated something like I need to just let her go she gets that I am still in love with her, I have not said the ILY for some time, refusing as the last time I said it months ago her reply was "I know" that one stung alot ... along with other things she has said the past few months .... all MLC type stuff as I am learning, not sure how long this ride is going to last but I have just tried to pray, stay centered and have tried to give it to God.
Today I focused on work and actually had a good day, played with S ... at peace for the most part other than the small hiccup stopping myself quickly before I got upset and obsessed.
