Doing all right

[BrightFuture]

FY, thank you for this:

Besides, You're not getting older, you're getting better!

Yes, this is about dating, or actually not dating. Everybody tells me that I would have no problem finding somebody to date. As a matter of fact in the last two years there were quite a few guys who wanted to date me. When I meet new single guys and talk with them, they immediately want to get to know me better. And I always tell them that I’m not ready for dating, but I we can be friends. Well, it usually doesn’t work, because they are always trying to be more than friends. So, I back off.

I’m pretty content by myself. I feel very comfortable in this world. I am not afraid of challenges of everyday life. I can take care of myself. It is just that I want to share my life with somebody special. And I feel that my chances to meet that somebody special are getting smaller and smaller as I get older.

Yes, Mighty, I’m thinking about bright future for me. This is exactly why choose this user name.

LiveNow, I’ve tried to tell people about stuff I leant here, but they dismiss it like something I’m using to distract myself from reality. I has a conversation with a young woman who was trying to be a life coach, and she told me this “Your H told you very clearly that he doesn’t want to be with you, but you didn’t get the message”. Meaning that I still had hope (it was about a year ago.)

Small update. Received a forwarded e-mail from H. I ordered a new phone through the phone company and they sent the shipment notification e-mail to H’s e-mail. This phone account used to be a joint account. He changed to a different phone company last year. The account was created for our business and apparently had his name and e-mail attached. I tried to change it a couple of times (called and went to the local store), but something was not updated properly. So, he received this e-mail 2 days ago when the phone shipped. Today he just forwarded it to me without a word.

I guess he really doesn’t want to be in contact with me anymore. I was reading GGG’s updated today where she said that her H followed her behavior. When she distanced herself, so did he. I wonder if this is what happened in my case too. I silently forwarded him his mail. And now he silently forwards me the e-mails. I never got a thank you for sending him his mail (that includes Playboy magazine BTW), so should I also stay silent and not mention the e-mail? I just don’t know anymore.