barely holding on - 2

[u-turn]

Here goes another evening of acting as if. At least it keeps the kids happy. Make dinner, eat dinner, clean dinner, off to separate corners. I've been getting out in the evening (little things like biking or walking the dog. Not social things but it's good to get out of the house.

Last night it was similar. W will tell me about work, I listen, say uh huh and oh really (but really do listen). She doesn't ask me anything about anything. But I guess it's cordial and we are not fighting or completely giving each other the cold shoulder. Sometimes my impatience gets to me and I feel like this could could go on forever this way. It's hard not to wonder what's going on in that head.