In today's phone call H was cheerful and ended the convo by saying he missed me. I haven't heard that in a long time. It's like all of a sudden he's trying really hard. I just see it as more of the same and all of it is pretty meaningless to me. As advised by 25yearsmlc, I needed to see something concrete.

I was going to tell him that when he came back next time that I would prefer he not stay at the house and, truthfully, it would be a lot less stressful on me if he didn't. As long as he was being distant and somewhat cool toward me, that would be an easy thing to do. Now it's getting tougher. I suppose because I know how it feels to have your efforts rebuffed and it's hard to do that to someone else.

I just need to keep reminding myself that this is probably just more of the same game.


Me: 59 and holding
H: :53
Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown
M: 19
T: 23
BD: 9-23-2013