In the beginning (after the bomb), most of my crying and begging centered on the break-up of our family unit (how we will not be going on vacations together anymore, etc). There was Less focus on actually losing her as my wife, until later on.
Although I didn't actually do any begging, much of my thought process has been on the breakup of the family unit, how it will affect the kids, etc. Much less on the loss of a H, even now. Hmmmm.....something to think about.
