I do want to go, because I enjoy spending time as a family. She knows this so I don't see any real reason for me to try to act any differently (IMO). It would certainly be a 180 if I told her I didn't want to go.
In the beginning (after the bomb), most of my crying and begging centered on the break-up of our family unit (how we will not be going on vacations together anymore, etc). There was Less focus on actually losing her as my wife, until later on.
I know I'm only 6 weeks in, so speaking in terms of "beginning" and "later on" may sound absurd to most people here.
M: 15 years BD: 6/25/14 EA/PA: starts 5/14/14 11/30/14 - A ends 5/15/15 - D is finalized. 11/28/15 - Start of new LTR with a wonderful woman (and still going strong)!
