Today I read what I wrote yesterday and I wish I could delete the first half. I am ashamed of my reaction. That's not who I want to be. I can see bitterness and despair.
Obviously not detached. Obviously.
Today I am better. Got more sleep. Re-read everything I copied from the stickied threads.
No more backsliding.
I will be polite but firm about my boundaries.
I will do some intense prayer before each mediation appointment so I am more centered and calm. No more crying. Just acceptance of what is, no resistance to what is happening.
I can choose to be scared, or sad. Or I can choose to be in a better place than those emotions.
I am a child of God and have no reason to fear anything on this planet.
Thank you, GGrass for sharing with me. At one point I wondered if there was another OW because he was so jovial but really? It doesn't matter.
The OWs are just symptoms of the MLC. They have nothing to do with me. I've got to remember that.
I am unfamiliar with the acronym GG, though. Tell me what that means!
M:54, H:55 T:33, M:27 12/13 BD: EA 01/14 BD: PA, H leaves 03/14 H & OW break up 05/14 H says he will file for D 08/14 H initiates D 09/14 H wants to R 12/14 Still bungling our way through R
