It's hard to see her in a good way. I'm so madly in love with her and it's hard to look at her without being tempted to tell her.
That's exactly how I feel. Hang in there. Know that there are others here who are going through exactly what you're going through.
M: 15 years BD: 6/25/14 EA/PA: starts 5/14/14 11/30/14 - A ends 5/15/15 - D is finalized. 11/28/15 - Start of new LTR with a wonderful woman (and still going strong)!