Ggrass, Mighty, LiveNow, thank you for your kind words. It means a lot to me. I feel much better when I have somebody to talk to. I don’t talk much about my sitch with my friends and family anymore. When my thread goes without comments for some time I start feeling alone. I know there is not much going on in my thread. It is not that exciting or dramatic as others. I’m also not a good writer. So, when people leave even a small comment, I get excited and it keeps me going, moving on.
Mighty, thank you for sending me positive vibes. I think it is working .
LiveNow, the only place where people still understand me is here, on this board. Everyone else around me (including my GF who did go through this and it took her a loooong time to finally end it) are asking me why I haven’t filed for D yet. They look at me like I am some kind of loony or just a week person. This is one of the reasons I stopped socializing with people who made friends with in the past 2 years. Every time I meet with them they ask me if I’m D’d already. Well, some of them are the guys who want to be closer friends with me .
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state
. 
.