And sorry for not going back and reading the whole thread (where you may have covered this), but H saying that he wants to go but NOT LEAVING shows me that he's conflicted. Okay - he's conflicted. Let him spin his wheels in his head, because nothing you say or do is going to get him out of the crazy stuff he's thinking right now anyway.
So - more dance parties. More GAL. More pleasantness with your roommate. One day at a time, one hour at a time sometimes. Believe me. I GET IT.
I've decided today that this stinks so stinking much because it's a rebirth for ME as much as it is for him. I'm going through the Labor and Delivery of the new MLP. I've changed as a result of this. And I've definitely gotten to the point where I don't want the old marriage back (that feeling actually comes!). I'm stronger. I have different needs now. And so, at some point when H is done going through the crazy of MLC, we will figure out if New H and New MLP are compatible with each other. I hope we are. Because old H and old MLP had some really good times. But for now - I've got to wait and see what emerges from these chrysalises.
