#42. 50 is the new 40!

[kat727]

So here we go again. Near repeat of last summer's drama. Involving the same two people. I am so diappointed. I thought S18 was finally getting on track and yet...no. He will be 19 next month, says he still plans on going to school. They have no idea yet about the baby but I am thinking they will want to keep it since they lost the baby last year.

I do feel as if I failed somehow. These are two broken and hurt young people that I believe are trying to make everything better by somehow becoming parents themselves. Ex had the nerve to tell me that S18 isn't broken. I did get mad and I said how would you know? You weren't here when he would curled up and cry for over an hour at a time, when he had a hitting frenzy on his big brother, when he would sneak out. Ex missed all of that. I probably shouldn't have said anything, he just doesn't know these kids.

Maybe I don't either. I know that this is the consequence of the choices that they made. Uggghhh, I cried a lot, but I didn't yell. I barely slept last night.

kat