W called to wish me a happy birthday. Tried to sound happy and upbeat but I felt pretty bad. She said that we should do cake and gifts Saturday and I said that was fine. She then asked me to meet her at the gym later tonight. I am doing a lot of things without her but I really miss her and have no clue if what I am doing is working. She has not spoken to the kids since Monday and was in the neighborhood yesterday and did not come to see them.
