Thank you MLP and Stacey. It's hard not to lose hope when things are just the same from day to day. Like I said, he still lives at home, we still sleep together, we pleasantly go about our daily routines. But he still wants to leave. It's hard to know how to make things better when things are not bad, know what I mean? Plus, neither one of us ever brings up relationship issues, so I have no idea where I stand most of the time. I just know he wants out.
Last night after I got back from the gym I showered and was in a peppy mood. My D11 and I had a dance party in the kitchen while I was making dinner. She didn't catch on to the theme of my playlist, which were basically "good riddance" songs. She was just having a good time watching mom dance. If I can do that more and cry less that would be helpful.
