2.5 Months After D-day...and I wait

[DBinSF]

Hi all, this is my new thread after we blew up the original.

The basic sitch:

- Together for two years, not married.
- Affair began 4 months in after I "thought" I was not satisfied with the sex. (I've since learned I have a difficult time getting turned on by anything but an insecure or illicit relationship. I'm working on it in therapy.)
- I broke off affair in April.
- OW sent letter to Fiancée in May.
- Fiancée asked me to move out (changed the locks on D-Day, in fact)
- I begged for six weeks.
- She told me she was going to block my phone if I didn't stop bothering her.
- I maintained NC for almost a month
- She contacted me on Aug 1 (my birthday) with heartfelt and compassionate message. There was no hint at reconciliation, but it was much more lovibg than I expected.
- I responded with my first "clean" message since d-day, meaning no pleading, no requests, no self serving.
- And now I wait...