Don't know what to do, fight for it or move on

[TRDiver]

Really struggling again. I've spent over half my life very close to her, so unlearning this and detaching seems such a monumental task. I can feel her getting closer to the OM, it is almost surreal and so I check the phone bill today and lo and behold she's openly txting and calling again.

I'm struggling with how easily (it seems) she's moved on or is moving on and how fast it is all progressing. I'm hurting pretty bad, and trying to stay positive.