Ah - a lucky number - how appropriate. I wonder what and if to tell d16 about how I feel about all this. I don't want to pressure her excessively, but losing her even more (after all these years of lost chances to spend childhood time with her) really hurts. Why should I try anymore for her, when the pain outweighs the pleasure? Do I have to suffer just because I am her dad? If she spends so little time with me, does that change my obligations to her? Do I openly tell her how hurt I am?
It seems so easy for her to accept being away from me - doesn't she realize the pain this causes me?
Given your first highlighted comment above, how on earth would your d KNOW how you feel, when you do not tell her? She's no mind reader, she's a teenage girl with a non communicative father. I suspect she does NOT know how you feel. What SHE sees is you traveling a lot and being very aloof and quiet when you are around.
So what do you think SHE FEELS about that type of reclusive behavior of yours?
LL, you are the parent. That is supposed to clarify things, but I'll read on before posting more...for now.
The one woman/girl, beyond my mom, that I really still love, leaving, again and again, and my wonderful, kind, W gets her. I am truly overjoyed.
L
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
