I found some photos on the computer. I asked him about them and he said it was over, didn't last long, he was very sorry and it was wrong. He has blocked her on all social media etc too. i believe him. he even said he would talk to a priest who has been helping me, although he hasn't.
He came home and moved back into the spare room. When I discovered the photos he said there was no point trying to save our marriage, he had killed it. I told him this wasn't true, as I was still here, and I am more than able and willing to forgive. And we had some more conversations about possibly moving forward. , I was tentatively suggesting we spend some time together with out the kids, movies etc. He started to put up walls again, and then last night i ruined it all. He says he doesn't love me, hasn't for a long time, only married me as a way to force himself. Says he has been trying for years, and is done. When i asked why he never said anything, he said, what would have been the point? I said well now i know the issues, please give me a chance to try with you?! He just says no. He flips and changes. He says he wants to split but wants me and the kids to stay in the house (Which i can't afford alone), he wants to see them whenever he wants, he wants things to stay as they are really. When i point out that it can't work that way, he says fine. you wont get a cent more than what i have to give, and if you try to take the kids to where your family live 4 hours away,(i have no support network where we live), i'll fight you in court. And then he said the only reason he came home was his lawyer told him to. And with that he left the house, saying this is why it will never work.
