Matt - you have really been through the wringer, haven't you? I have to say, you are doing awesome. Re: your vent the other day - you don't know if you can ever forgive...I'm not sure I can either. People who seem to do so easily just amaze me. I know it's really for ourselves if/when we forgive, and not so much for them. Hanging onto the anger and bitterness does us no good. I think I'm going to start praying that I can forgive. (But do I have to tell H if I do? Ha.) Anyway, you've stood beyond what I ever could have done. She has tested every fiber of your being, but think of yourself and kids now.
One thing I keep wondering, though...what do you think might happen one day when her father is gone? I really have to wonder, if that whole element were removed from this sitch, where might you/she be? Is that something that might happen in the not-too-distant future? I wish a long and healthy life for everyone, but is that something that might change things down the road?
Keep going Matt, you'll make it. We all will.
Me 53, XH 57 M 20 (+1.5) years, no kids BD June '13 H moved out July '13 Confirmed long-suspected PA Feb '14 H filed for D Nov. '14 D March '15
