Thank you for the advice. I was floored when I saw that check come through. Surprisingly, I haven't cried. I must be more detached than I thought...maybe, I was pretty sad.
I still have hope, he did come back last time and that was when he admitted EA. The hope isn't as strong but its here.
So H took S to the PGA practice round today and shared lots of pics with me. H also told me how much he spent and talked a lot about the pros they saw. I validated and supported. H did have a short altitude towards D. I keep waiting for him to come out of this, but I think we aren't close to the end of those tunnels.
I was reading some old posts and they mentioned at bomb drop that we are only 50-75% through...which puts me to July 2015-17. I hope were at 75%!
Like Lois mentioned, maybe this is a good thing. He hasn't been on his own and is always around so he can't miss me.
One day at a time...
Atsbaby M:36 H:35 T: 19 M:12 S:11 D:9 BD: 5/4/14 Proof of OW 8/13/14-love note from her 8/19 admits OW 8/22/14 files D w/o telling me 9/20/14 Says he wants to reconcile