Maybell VI

[Maybell]

So H texted me to plan call with kids and then added "I assume you're still frustrated with me?"

Me: Was just trying to plan my words so they'd be constructive. It's really hard to express myself right now in a way that is honest and constructive.

H: That's okay. Take your time. I understand. I didn't want to push you or anything.

Me: I really don't understand what you were trying to say with that song, especially with the "don't take this the wrong way" caveat. But I'd like to.

H: I don't know what I was trying to say either. I just was listening to the song and thought I'd share with you. It was spur of the moment and not well thought out. Was just trying to bridge the gap a little, that's all.

Me: I appreciate you thinking of me.

H: I want to be friends right now and it hasn't been easy. Sorry it's been so awkward. It is a hard place for me to talk right now though. I don't know where I am right now but I do know that I don't want it to be so hard with things between us.

Me: I am your wife. It is not reasonable for you to expect me to be comfortable with "just friends." I would be happy to rebuild the relationship from the ground up but it is impossible for me to be warm and friendly with you while having no expectations and it is insensitive of you to ask that of me.

H: Yes. I realize a lot of things I say are contradictory and not practical sometimes. I don't mean to be insensitive. But you are right that I have been.

And then it was just whether the kids wanted to talk to him.

So he's not there at all but his song/video choice is still curious. Back to kids & finances till he misses me more, I guess.

Or until we just drift into a divorce. I'm feeling discouraged.